That’s so not me. I swear. That last post didn’t make any sense, I apologize. I haven’t felt so low in a very long time. I thought about cutting myself…only for a split second. I’m not putting myself there again. It’s just that when the people I love and care about tell me things so straight and blunt, I can’t take it. I feel ashamed and embarrassed. I hate getting into trouble. I hate when people lose respect in me. I guess I don’t take negative criticism very well.
I know I say I want things to be different in my life, but I also I know I haven’t done anything about it. Maybe it’s that time. It’s one of those few times that Pandora comes in and makes me feel a little better. I put it on and it automatically plays music that says how I feel and makes me feel better.
It makes me feel that whatever it is that I’m feeling…I’m not the only one.