I got me some itchy feet. I mean, I have this feeling of restlessness and and discontent following me around lately. I don’t know why. The weather here is perfect and the SO and I are doing very well. I think what it comes down to is that I need a change of scenery. My small town life in Gainesville is becoming painfully aware that I do not belong here and need to get out. I need to stop working in the restaurant industry. I am tired of being a team player. I feel like I am always taking one for the team. Well, when is the team going take one for me? Never. I need to stop being so passive aggressive. I need to be more assertive and motivated to do something with my life. I took the first step by applying for the teacher certification. I can only hope I did that part right.
I kind of stopped studying for the GRE because I feel like no one would want me with my grades, so I should gain some life experience before applying. Ha! Some life experience I’m getting now. Seriously, tomorrow I am going to the UF press and just beg and ask for something to do. I need an excuse to get out of the funk that I am in now. Sometimes I feel like I bake so I don’t have to worry about what’s going on around me. I don’t want to deal with not having a real job and my family wondering what I am doing with my life. I don’t want to deal with the SO giving me the look of “what are you doing with you life?” I want to be successful, but I feel like I either missed out on the tools that could help or I messed my chances on fixing myself so that it would be easier. I just wish there was a magical pill where I could just motivate myself to do all the things I want to in my life.
I apologize. Pity party post now over.